Dharana is a decision we make to be present, to look and to listen, to allow ourselves to see and feel the words of the real poem.
-Rolf Gates, Meditations from the Mat: Daily Reflections on the Path of Yoga
Day 311 – This morning I woke up excited about doing a new belly dancing class, even at 4 a.m. Old stuff feels new after my long hiatus, and I think I can give it my all, because I’m ready to, with no particular place to go, no particular goals, other than to feel my body out and increase my stamina, technique, and learn better and more efficient body habits.
I made a decision on Friday night to withdraw from my pre-calculus class. The teacher hadn’t graded anything since before the midterm, most of group was posting sparingly and others in other groups not at all, and the calendar showed that the last class (on my busiest week of school, just prior to break) that there was a 4-part group project AND 7 lessons on Module 12 plus the final. Without much hesitation, I decided to withdraw. I learned a lot about myself and math, enough to tutor my middle school students and help the algebra and geometry ones (who are in high school classes). I’m almost a wizard on the TRS-80 Plus CE. However, I’m not sure I want to miss the poem for a class that goes nowhere and a teacher who doesn’t particularly teach or cultivate curiosity. Thus, ended my short mathematical stint. And, let me reiterated, I don’t want to miss the poem. No need to.
And, so, it has been glorious to wake up at 4 a.m. to do belly dance AND yoga AND know, if I really wanted to, I could just go to bed early and not worry about cranking out another lesson in pre-calc. I also am free to do some evening classes at Florida Tribal and work on some of those school projects I have been assigned, although I tend to do that at work not at home because…well, I don’t usually work from home, other than lesson plans.
Dharana allows us to look and listen. With no particular place to go, the world is bigger, brighter, and curiously available.