“As long as we stand apart in judgment, we sabotage the opportunity for connection and integration that is yoga…Before our bodies can open, they must first let go; clenched and guarded muscles must relax.  But the mind must let go first.”

Rolf Gates, Meditations from the Mat:  Daily Reflections on the Path of Yoga

Day 12 – What are the various aspects of living which we negate by becoming numb to the world around us and distracted by things we do not like?  Intimacy. Empathy. Passion. Adventures.  Today’s reading confirms that time spent on the mat awakens us to a profound understanding that “intimacy with the felt experience of the body and breath brings peace of mind.”

Just finishing a short dance and yoga session, a little wobbly from the doctor’s visit yesterday where I was told that I have familial hypercholesterolaemia.  In addition, he offered me more prescriptions.  I spent an hour or so running and walking afterward in the beautiful afternoon to work this out.  The way I feel is rebellious, and stepping on the mat felt this morning felt more rebellious.  I felt violated.  The question really is why?  Society really gives us so many mixed messages and people give us so many educated opinions and then afterthoughts, as well.  I’m wondering if what and when I eat, so carefully metered these days around my thyroid medicine and food sensitivities, actually matters?  Meanwhile, I will step onto the mat and continue to be intimate with my “failing” body (according to the doctor).