Day 114 – Rolf opens with a quote from Ellen Bass (more poetry, please): “There’s a part of every living thing that wants to become itself. The tadpole into the frog, the chrysalis into the butterfly, a damaged human into a whole one. That is spirutality.” This is yoga.
Today, upon my mat, I did energy work from the bottom up in prayer, in reverence, and in gratitude of so many things. The women’s rally yesterday inspired me, as Rolf put it: “compelled” me to recognize and asert my “deeper sense of knowing,” my higher calling as a divine being.
He advises also that “the path we choose will not necessarily make sense, but we have all experienced the emptiness of “making sense.” I chose many roles in life because they were expected by others and by myself. I am fortunate to be a mother, wife, and a college and post-secondary graduate. I am fortunate to have a job where I can impact our next generation in positive ways. I am fortunate to teach yoga and movement, as well.
The fear of answering the higher calling, not hearing or listening to the inner voice, being unsure, hesitant, and silent (as I learned yesterday–I heard you, Sisters) is, as Rolf puts it, avidya. I should, like Ghandi, and so many other teachers, “follow the dictates of [my] conscience.” Rolf ends this reading aptly: “Grace begins when we dare to allow our prayers to be answered.”
I am thankful this week to understand what prayer, grace, and truth really look like. It has been so difficult to get past the layers of culture, language, experience, and expectations.